What the hell is wrong with me !!!

Its either me … or its the world that is fucked up in the head !

I seriously can’t deal with people and their idiocies … three instances in a span of 2 hours, had my blood boiling and me just ready to claw any one who dared to ask me what is wrong with you girl?

Instance 1 - I am standing at the Vodaphone bill payment shop in CP… all is well … people are taking their time to count their money and i mean a lot of time to count … to recount and count again…. to re re assure themselves
… i still haven’t lost it …even after the sweeper dusts the CP dust in my face and hair …. i don’t react though i am reaching that danger zone

One Bihari uncle (i am NOT a regional racist … but he was Bihari!) … he comes up stands behind me … a little to close (why was i surprised … or am i just paranoid??) .. is chewing a paan and counting his notes … he then after making his presence felt with his shuffling of feet and chewing noises ….. suggests that i move inside the shop which is already flooded with people … I choose to ignore it …. says it again ….. me ignoring …cause i know i will just blast the hell off him with my verbal bashing ….

The man has guts … he suggests it again …. and that my friend was IT! ….you have pressed the wrong button !!

I start off with …  rattling all kinds of stuff like …who are u to tell me …too its to crowded .. do u need specs to see that ?? what nonsense …. and blah blah and blah

Can’t even remember half of the things !!

The conversation ends with bihari crackpot telling me - ”chup raheya” (Be quite) 

and me telling him - “app phele chup raheye” (You be quite first)

And then we stand in silence me just wanting to strangle the hell out of this random man

That gets me thinking …why ?? why the hell i reacted that way ?? I could have reasoned it out with him and told him that bhaisaab (brother) its too crowded and i am not walking into that crowd. 

Am i that intolerant ? People who don’t adhere to social norms … are bound to get a verbal bashing from me?  Why can i not just IGNORE these nincompoops ? Do i think that i  am above a lot of people and that’s why i react the way i react?

Its tiring …just thinking about it ………… well i have decided to pay my phone bill on-line now … it ain’t worth it……… this interaction with people on the streets, who are bound to stand a little to close to you and are bound to talk to you for no reason and are (the most baffling one) bound to give you suggestions (??) on how to go about your business

Kab sudheregay mera desh (When will my country learn)